I WONDER IF MY BOYFRIEND LIKES ME

True.

My boyfriend's the kind of carefree guy that does a really great job of doing his own thing. Before I go any further, I should probably mention I'm hopelessly in love with him. Is it pathetic to say I miss him as soon as he leaves the room? He makes everything in this crazy world okay. Three years later and I'd still pick cuddling over going on a real date. We spend every single day with each other (when we're in the same city)*. He always tells me he could spend all day everyday with me and still it wouldn't be enough. 
Sounds great, right?


Well... there's one thing I'm skipping over... Unless he's holding my hand through it, our relationship tears me apart. I'm really confident with who I am but I get pretty insecure about where we stand sometimes. He's just so damn aloof. He doesn't text very much, goes days without calling and has to be reminded to be affectionate. It's not much of a problem when I'm at home because we see each other so often, but now that we're a long distance couple, it can get pretty messy.

I know it's just not in him to be very emotional though. To give you an idea of the stone that pumps blood to his body: I've been with him long enough to see the unfortunate death of a loved one, yet he hasn't shed a tear since middle school. I know he does love me and he does do really crazy and creative things for me occasionally, but he's not the kind of guy that texts just to say he's been thinking about you, if you know what I mean. And it kind of drives me crazy.

This guy's got it right.

Our greatest weakness as a couple would definitely be that I can't always handle how independent he is. Normal people need to feel loved and cared for and needed! We can't live without it- the same way we can't live without food, sleep or even water. This guy though could go his whole life without the love or approval of anyone. He just doesn't care! I'm almost convinced he's some crazy hybrid from the future. I'm not sure why they sent him here yet but I'm working on it. My friends always tell me that, somehow, I got the boy who never cared about anything to finally care about something: me.
The only problem: I still question how much?


* We have the same group of friends so we're not one of those weird, isolated couples.