I FEEL LOST INSIDE MYSELF

I feel lost inside myself. I don’t even know what’s going on in my own head. I’m just kind of all over the place. For once, I feel incapable of explaining how I feel. The best I can do is tell you that I feel lost inside myself. Ahhhhh. I feel lonely here sometimes. I walk to and fro class by myself, sit quietly in lectures and go fetch a meal in my own company. I used to picture myself being fiercely independent. And I still do think that self is inside me somewhere but I can’t find her. I do like my own time and do most things by myself but that’s not what I mean by independence. I mean I'm not independent because I want someone to hug my soul. Maybe that sounds borderline pathetic, but that's what I want. My friends and (long distance -_-) boyfriend and family just aren't enough for me right now. I want to be apart of something bigger than myself. I need to find a job or volunteer somewhere or something. I need to belong to a community.