26/10/2013 A stream of thoughts that ends abruptly
I've been single for about 14 months. I know, I should have lost count by now, but I haven't. At the risk of sounding corny, I have grown up so much in that time. I don't actually mind being corny. Corny means people have said it before, and people will say it again. A lot of the time corny means being passionate about something. It means there are real feelings there, and you're admitting it. That doesn't sound too bad to me. So while I'm at it I may as well admit I'm on one of those self-discovery journeys.
Last year was the greatest, in the strangest sense of the word.
I spent September in a delusional high. I was single for the first time in my life, because single at 15 is a very different world from single at 20, and I was elated. In many ways, I had longed to be single since I first started dating my ex-boyfriend about 5 years ago. My happiness was twisted denial though. I'd wake up some mornings crying, and I had no idea why. Well, I didn't have concrete thoughts- just the general feeling of being down. Of course, I know why now.
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